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I think it's safe to assume that you're here upon my request...really, I woke up this morning with a notion to be closer to God...isn't that a good notion to begin with, after all?
I don't know why, but I have had a compelling urge to do this for quite some time. Maybe it's so I can get down the things in my heart and mind without fear of being misunderstood? Or perhaps it's just so I can maintain a bit of the literary side I feel like I've lost in recent months?
Nah, that's not it.
I really think this comes down to me working things out. Or, rather, letting God take them as they come to mind and watching in awe as He works them out. I never saw myself as the type of guy to actually take time to journal...I used to, when I was much younger, and most of that was over this girl or that dying friendship, but now I find a necessity in journaling as a form of worship. To see past what my mind wants me to "think and move on" from...more or less, I want to spill my guts about the Word of God, the trials I go through, and the thoughts, feelings, desires, and notions that pass in and through me, all the while asking for the openness of others and maybe some help.
You see, I NEVER want anyone to give me their 2 cents about what I know to be true. But I'm tired of fighting against the part of "loving your neighbor" that encompasses humility. I need your thoughts...however, I need them because Christ said I did, to be open with my brothers and sisters so that the Church can thrive and grow and become the Bride she always was meant to be. That said, I long for real community and fellowship, and I'm asking for accountability, too. (all the while, I feel my flesh screaming for me to stop typing these things...but he's not in charge anymore, is he?)
Anyway, this is a beginning. Journaling is something I've promised God and myself, and now I extend that promise to you. I may forget from time to time, but I'd like to continue this as a 2-way conversation...so if you will, read AND write....I long for communion with Christ and others, and if you'll talk, so will I, and I believe, so will God. Let's see what happens with this seemingly "small" blog. Any thoughts?
